72

72 is a terrible number, especially when it's your grade on your last geology test. Really though, who likes 72? No one is every like "gee whiz! I can't wait until I'm 72!" And as far as grades go I should have gotten nothing below an 80. I studied for that test for eight hours. EIGHT hours. I've never studied for anything so much in my whole life, not even the ACT's. In fact, I studied for maybe an hour for the ACT's and here I am in college! I guess that's not saying a whole lot, espcially because of that stupid 72. I swear I'm not dumb either, that's what I first thought when I got my test. I thought "man I am so stupid. I studied forever and only got a 72. What's wrong with me!?" but then I had to start the positive self talk- you're not stupid, and you just need to study more. It's really hard to positive self-talk yourself sometimes though. Like today. It was hard. I have to remember that hey I might not be great at everything, but at least I'm good at some things! Like I got an A+ on my last art theory test and an A- on my painting. While those things may not require as much knowledge of geology, it's more of a talent and I guess that's ok too. I just wish I could be good at all things academics. I've never really cared about being good at sports, although I have recently fallen in love with football (well only when I'm drugged...) I just wish I could be smart. I wish that thing came easily to me, that I didn't have to ask lots of questions in class, that I could remember everything I learn and not doubt myself! But seeing as there is opposition in all things, if I never got a bad grade, maybe I wouldn't feel any drive to get better ones. This post is kinda depressing, but in a happy way, but I apologize if it's depressing anyone. Really though it shouldn't! Even though I got a 72 (which by the way is a super terrible number in general) I want to work even harder to get a better grade for the final, I want to bust my butt and so that when he grades my last test he'll be like "Oh Snap!" and maybe, just maybe, i'll get an 82, or better (82 is much better than 72).