Sunday, December 21, 2008

I love you

So this morning I woke up and started thinking about love. I think it's sad that some people don't believe in it and that they use the word so sparingly. It's also a crying shame that we're all a little hesitant to use it. I mean aren't we all commanded to love each other? So why are we so afraid of it? I think what people are more afraid of is trusting. I think people are afraid of making themselves vulnerable... but does that mean that you have to trust someone completely before you love them? Can't you just simply love them? Maybe we're all so afraid of love because it's so undefined, it has so many meanings! It's a noun and a verb and just holy cow it's all ova the place!
I was also thinking about kissing. Someone once told me a kiss should only be used to show sincere affection, respect and admiration. And I'm not sure about the rest of you but I'm pretty sure that not all of my kisses fall under those requirements. And it makes me a little sad that I've let so many people kiss me, and I them, when I knew that they didn't feel that way. There are a lot of alterior motives for kissing people... which can be good or bad... depending on how you look at it. I know personally I've used "it's just fun!" "practice makes perfect?" "it's not the horniness... it's the lonelyness"(that comes from the Office.. and other sources ;) ) and a couple others that are not appropriate to share over the internet.
Anyways I'd just like to say that when I say I love you I MEAN IT! it may not be head over heels, shooting stars, take me on a magic carpet ride kinda love. It could be just as a friend, "i love hanging out with you!", or "you just make me happy" love. And if you ever need me to define my love for you, just ask :p. And if I've ever kissed you, sorry if it wasn't in the way it should have been. And if it was- you're lucky and one of few ;)

2 comments:

Alicia said...

ha ha ha... that was to one paragraph in particular. deep post Kady. i enjoyed it.

Sharlene and Matt said...

Oh kady. i love you. i am so happy that we live together!! i think that kissing could just be something we like to share with people in order to get to know them better. For me its easier to open up with people I have already kissed. but not becuase Im lonely or horny and although it is fun i dont think anyone thinks a kiss means love. it means attraction and you want to get to know them more. okay im done. haha I love you! and i mean it.