hesitation, procrastination and complication

^Kaily and I making brownies for the Sigs!
So we all know I'm not very consistent when it comes to blogging. I'm not very consistent in a lot of things either, but that's another thing.
So I've been thinking about how people tend to hesitate. I'm not saying it's a bad thing, or a good thing. Just think about how you hesitate to send that text message, you hesitate before you give in to a kiss, you hesitate when you think about not going to class, you hesitate when thinking about whether or not you really want to go to that party. There are endless moments of hesitation. Is it because we're human that we do this, is it a natural instinct? Or is it because we don't really trust ourselves? Is trusting yourself, or lack there of, a natural instinct? I know for sure that I hesitate, whether or not it's for the better, all the time. I'm very indecisive. Take me to any restaurant and you'll witness it.
Procrastination. That single word could be considered the definition of my college experience, well not entirely, but a big part of it. I procrastinate SO much! In everything, in my church calling, in Alpha Phi, in school, in calling people back! Why?! WHY DO I DO THIS?! It only stresses me out more. It's so frustrating that I frustrate myself, but I've always been a procrastinator. And it's not that I don't get things done or don't get them done well, I just get them done in an uncomfortably close time frame.
Have you ever thought about how complicated your life can be sometimes and then you realize that it's really not? I know that sounds a little out there, but just stick with me! Like you think you have all these problems and life really couldn't get any worse and then something amazing happens. Whether it happens through someone wonderful in your life, an experience or just something happening. I mean like I have problems... but WHO doesn't, really. I don't mean that like OMGIHAVEPROBLEMS, it's just a fact and I'm finally starting to realize that when you're going through the hardest times that's when you need to be closest to the Lord, and sometimes that the hardest thing to do, but I know life tends to un-complicate itself when you do so.
In other news this week was the first week of school! And other than the mass amounts of food I've been eating, it's been amazinggggg! I can't even describe how happy I am to be back in Cedar! I love it here so much! Not so much that I want to up and move here and raise a family here, but it's great for college!!! I love all my classes, except for CSIS, which blows chunks. I LOVE my writing about art class, 2-d design, and 20th century art history class, i love art, i love my major!!! SO MUCH! And I've made new friends! I've been hanging out at the Sigma Chi (they're a fraternity) house a lot and they're just so funny and laid back. They always have some party to go to, some toilet to blow up and as long as you're at the house you're invited! Plus we've even been having decent weather! I really love being back :) I want to make this semester the BEST one yet!